I’m a firm believer that good can, and will, come from bad. It’s quite possibly that mindset, along with my faith, that has prevented me from becoming a blithering mess several times this year. I think it’s also why this quote from Rick Warren screamed to me when I saw it on Pinterest.
I think it’s fair to say I’ve had a bit of tough stuff to deal with this year. Having lost my Gran recently, on top of losing my mum, who was followed to heaven by our friends’ young daughter, I’m just kind of sitting here thinking is this it, am I done now, can I start to move on from this grief place before being kicked back to the beginning? But even if I can’t, even if my grief journey has many more roundabouts and roads to travel, I want to continue to carry myself with authenticity, dignity and as much as possible, with strength.
Because I know my children are watching me. And now that I’ve opened myself up on here, others are too. I want people to know it’s okay to fall apart. But it’s also okay to carry on. The two can happen companionably.
And I want people to see that my strength and my healing comes from my faith, my family and myself. Myself, because it’s something I’m working on – I’m not just waiting to get ‘better’, I’m being intentional about this (hopefully without pushing myself too fast).
If someone can look at me and think ‘if Abbie can do it, I can do it’, if someone reaches out to God because they saw something in my story, if in some way I can influence someone on their journey for the better, then good has come from my sad. And I’m more than happy with that.