Daily prompt: 190 Days Later
If I could have looked forward to this day on January 21 and predicted how life would be, would I have been right? I’m going to go with ‘no‘. I’m guessing that now my life is going better than I would have thought possible back in January.
Let’s recap.
Eight days before January 21 I lost my mum and best friend. I’m not going to delve into that today, there are already a few posts if you want some of the back story. But a week into my grief I was in a completely dreamlike state. Nothing seemed real and I couldn’t think ahead to preparing the next meal, let alone how to handle the next six months!
It has been a roller coaster of emotions for me, experiencing some of my lowest lows ever. Ok, I probably did predict that. But there’s also been some lovely unexpected highs and a lot of growth personally. I re-entered the workforce which has been positive. I started this blog which has had some stunning outcomes for me. And our family continues to grow up and grow together. I was terrified in my grief I would revert to old habits of putting up emotional walls, pushing everyone away. Thankfully I’m learning, and have been able to (mostly) avoid that technique.
So all in all, if I had predicted, my guess is I would have said it’s going to be a roller coaster with more lows than highs. My reality is it has been a roller coaster but with more highs than lows. Yay.
This post is in response to The Daily Post’s Daily Prompt: Back on January 21st, we asked you to predict what day #211 would be like. Well, July 30th is that day — how have your predictions held up so far? If you didn’t reply to the prompt at the time, is this year turning out to be as you’d expected?
Abbie's Babble 
Thank you so much for sharing this. I’d like to say that roller coaster gradually coasts smoothly to a halt at some point, but as I’ve learned from others like us it’s different for every rider onboard. I’ve only just decided to seek therapy (and it’s been two years since my mom/best friend passed away), and it’s been surreal otherwise. Foggy, in fact. Work has kept me grounded in reality. The blogging, the writing, gives me pure joy (as do my sisters, father, and nephews).
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The writing has been really great for me too. It’s really nice when people can relate – not because they’ve also suffered loss, but also because it’s a shared journey. I don’t think the roller coaster will ever stop, I lived 36 with my mum, there will always be times to miss her and I’m ok with that. I think the highs and lows even out some though…for all of us on this journey x
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Thanks for responding to the prompt I came up with! I like your blog! 🙂
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Thank you for the prompt – I love these daily prompts, they get some interesting thoughts out of me!
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I agree!!!
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